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Where does time go? Where is our country going?

Wow so much has happened since the last time I wrote anything here. Not even sure where to start. I would need to go back and read where I left things at. I decided not to go back and reread my old posts at this point. I may still do that. Instead I am going to just put down what is on my mind. I decided to do that here rather then on FB just so I do not have to read all the post from friends and family on that very public forum. As I sit here laughing at myself  knowing this is another public forum. Just not as many of my family and friends read this site. Where oh where is this country I love so much going? If you had told me in 2012 that Donald Trump would be our President, and that Oprah Winfrey would be considering a run for president I would have called you a liar. And yet here we are. I have been outspoken about my dislike for Donald Trump. I could not even watch his TV show. He has always made my skin crawl. He is a very rich man. Made a huge amount of money. Yet has file
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Why does life move so quickly?

Wow I truly can not believe it has taken me a week to get back to this. Then again when I look back at this past week I can. The first stumbling block was not having a laptop or computer at my beck and call. You see while I am here in Ohio I literally have to go down to the lobby to use a computer I can blog at. Then there are all the distractions of many people coming and going. Some see you at the computer and ask what you are doing. Hello, what if I am typing something business related that is highly sensitive? Oh well my bad I am in a public spot. But acn I have my space anyway? So what has happened since I last blogged? Not a heck of a lot. I guess. My farm in Missouri is now officially being sold. We will be closing on or around Feb 25. This has me tearing up as I really wanted that place. I could so see myself breaking ground and growing my own food. Having some real live chickens. Laying naked (ok topless) out by the pond. Having a horse or two out there. I hope this really d
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Moving forward

Monday was amazing. After I finished my blog, as advertized I went and swam in the pool. How awesome that it was snowing these big huge fat flakes right outside the huge windows of the pool house. I spent about 30 to 45 min working out in the water. Did some crunches. Gazed at the falling snow from the warm water of the pool. Afterwards I went up to my room and soaked in a tub full of hot bubbly (shampoo as I had no bubble bath) water. And read until I fell asleep. Just marvelous! I did not get much sleep as I kept worrying about the fact that I had not heard from the girl I was training with. I finally got up at 5 and started getting ready for the day. At 6 I finally got the call from Kellie. Yes I could not remember her name and had actually just picked up the phone to call Kris my supervisor when my phone rang. Now Kellie will be picking me up at 6:45. Good thing I was up and dressed. I put some make up on and went down for my free breakfast. I had already decided knowing what th
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Happy New Year!

As promised I am starting my new life. I am tonight in an awesome Hampton Inn in Youngstown Ohio. As I did on Jan. 2, 2000 this Jan 2, 2012 I am on the road with a new job. The last time I landed in St. Paul Minnesota. I was working as a traveling x-ray/mammography tech. Now I am a Floating Stereotactic Specialist. There are still many things in my old life that I face everyday. From my messed up colon to my husband calling at odd times. I still have questions that need answering about who I am and where my life is going. But I am looking forward to finding who this complicated person is and what will make her happy not just drive her insane. Believe it or not I had someone the other day say I was just too nice for them to hang out with. Lord all I wanted was someone to laugh and joke with. I guess baking a pineapple upside down cake after they had said it was thier favorite was way too much. Whatever. Hell it is one of my favorite cakes. So I got to eat some too! I do not want peo
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Life goes on

Yesterday was a decent day although my belly is acting up. Cramping and diarrhea seem to be my routine at the moment. And my fissure has reopened. So starting fresh there another 6 weeks of healing. So today I will be blogging and writing so I am able to get up and down if the 'urge' hits. I was up off and on most of last night. I never felt less like blogging. My Journey continued: Dinner on my birthday night was all the comfort food. I had a french slam with hot chocolate. No coffee for me because I wanted to sleep. It was good food but not outstanding. When we got back to the room I called my daughter because we had been having an argument. I will not go into details, just that when I thought the conversation was going well she hung up the phone. What did I say? When I called back her husband answered and lets just say he made me pissed off so I hung up on him. I was so tired and cranky and that is never a great time to try to resolve problems. I knew I needed t
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Restarting my life

I have decided it is time for my life to be my own. I am going to take charge and change things. In the past I have made some effort in that direction today I am going to go the whole 9 yards. No ifs ands or buts. No excuses. I am the only one who can change me. The beginning of that is this blog. I will be opening my heart and soul here. I may say things that make people uncomfortable and even angry. I have been told the Internet is no place to put your feelings. I learned from reading both my daughter in law's and my step daughter's blogs that sometimes it is the best place to vent those feelings. This is a new age and time. I do not want to bury myself anymore. Where to start? There are so many things running in my brain. I think I will start with the journey I just finished to get to the physical place I am at now. The emotional one is still a long way away. Although I am beginning to see and realize where I am supposed to be. On November 4 th , my 49 th birthday, I lef
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Trip to Spain: The journey there

Yesterday I left California for my first trip out of the continental United States. My stomach was all knotted up and I could hardly sleep the night before. However, I was okay with that, as I believed I would be able to get some sleep on the plane. Getting to SFO was not a problem. Rich drove me. We left at about 1pm so I knew I would be there at least 2 hours before the flight. We had weighed my bags before leaving so I was pretty sure there would be no problem there. On the way to SFO I realize that Rich had placed all my bags, including my carry-on in the back. The only reason this was bad was I wanted to double check a few details before I got to the airport. Oh well, it could wait. Then I really looked at him and could not believe what my eyes told me. Did I not just tell him the other day that I would appreciate him looking at least presentable when we go out? Not in stained or ripped clothing please. Matching clothes would be nice. He was actually wearing a yellow and gr
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