My life My perceptions

Yesterday was a decent day although my belly is acting up. Cramping and diarrhea seem to be my routine at the moment. And my fissure has reopened. So starting fresh there another 6 weeks of healing. So today I will be blogging and writing so I am able to get up and down if the 'urge' hits. I was up off and on most of last night. I never felt less like blogging. My Journey continued: Dinner on my birthday night was all the comfort food. I had a french slam with hot chocolate. No coffee for me because I wanted to sleep. It was good food but not outstanding. When we got back to the room I called my daughter because we had been having an argument. I will not go into details, just that when I thought the conversation was going well she hung up the phone. What did I say? When I called back her husband answered and lets just say he made me pissed off so I hung up on him. I was so tired and cranky and that is never a great time to try to resolve problems. I knew I needed t...

I have decided it is time for my life to be my own. I am going to take charge and change things. In the past I have made some effort in that direction today I am going to go the whole 9 yards. No ifs ands or buts. No excuses. I am the only one who can change me. The beginning of that is this blog. I will be opening my heart and soul here. I may say things that make people uncomfortable and even angry. I have been told the Internet is no place to put your feelings. I learned from reading both my daughter in law's and my step daughter's blogs that sometimes it is the best place to vent those feelings. This is a new age and time. I do not want to bury myself anymore. Where to start? There are so many things running in my brain. I think I will start with the journey I just finished to get to the physical place I am at now. The emotional one is still a long way away. Although I am beginning to see and realize where I am supposed to be. On November 4 th , my 49 th birthday, I lef...

Yesterday I left California for my first trip out of the continental United States. My stomach was all knotted up and I could hardly sleep the night before. However, I was okay with that, as I believed I would be able to get some sleep on the plane. Getting to SFO was not a problem. Rich drove me. We left at about 1pm so I knew I would be there at least 2 hours before the flight. We had weighed my bags before leaving so I was pretty sure there would be no problem there. On the way to SFO I realize that Rich had placed all my bags, including my carry-on in the back. The only reason this was bad was I wanted to double check a few details before I got to the airport. Oh well, it could wait. Then I really looked at him and could not believe what my eyes told me. Did I not just tell him the other day that I would appreciate him looking at least presentable when we go out? Not in stained or ripped clothing please. Matching clothes would be nice. He was actually wearing a yellow and gr...

Well, It has been almost a year since my last blog. I will attempt at doing this again. There has been so much happening in my life and yet I am still at the same place I was before. So I need to change. Change starts on the inside. I must rethink my normal daily habits and figure out which things I need to change in order to make the most of my life. One of those things is playing a computer game for 3 hours a day. I get plugged into World of Warcraft every morning and allow myself to be sucked in almost until I go to work. I need to use it as a reward rather then a main staple of my life. In that regard I will be blogging (I HOPE) every morning including adding my goals for the day month and year. I have so much I want to accomplish in the next 3-6 months. Having said this here are my current goals for today: Personal 1. Blog and Set Goals 2. Be off the computer by 9am 3. Get out of the house and get some serious exercise in. Business 1. Talk to people and get at least 5 names and nu...

I was reading my daughter-in-laws blog today and just had to put down my own experiences. I try to read her blog about every 3 or 4 days. It helps me be closer to my grand children. I actually find most of her posts funny or just plain real. Even learn a few things that I did not get from my son, like Parker having some breathing issues. Well today I read her post from about three or four days ago about Holden and a guy in his room. Boy can I relate to that. I think Thomas has heard these stories before. These are my real experiences. The earliest memory I have of seeing something others could not was when I was about 4 or 5. Probably closer to 5 since I was in school at the time. I went to stay with a friend over night, it was my first overnight ever. She lived in a very large old house near our swimming pool. It had a Hedge maze in the back yard. We had fun hiding from each other in that maze. That night I slept on pillows and blankets on the floor between her bed and a wall. There w...

Well, it seems this year went by way too fast and is ending on a sour note for me. I believe that means that things can only get better. So what can I do to change these things that are wrong in my life? My weight, my income, my location? DO SOMETHING . Yes, that's what I said, I need to do something with my life. I believe I have found it to. I am stepping out of my comfort zone and into a more active role in my own life. It is way to easy to sit around and complain about how we do not have this or that. How we have too much weight or not enough time, as we sit on the couch watching hours of TV or play our computer games. I am not saying everyone does this, however me and my husband do. I started this morning with a schedule that I am building to get me off the couch, out of the computer chair, and out of the house and into the life I want. I started by getting up at 6:30 this morning when I got out of bed. I grabbed the dog and took her for a walk. Then I fed the animals. Spent ...

Oh my this day is going to stretch on forever and ever. I arrived at work hoping for a cool day and my machine is not working. Guess it wanted a day off today. Almost 2 hours and service is only 15 min away now. So now nothing to do but see if patients show and wait for the machine to be fixed. Meanwhile I forgot my patterns for the crocheting I am doing. I also finished the book I was reading last night. What to do.