My life My perceptions

Well, It has been almost a year since my last blog. I will attempt at doing this again. There has been so much happening in my life and yet I am still at the same place I was before. So I need to change. Change starts on the inside. I must rethink my normal daily habits and figure out which things I need to change in order to make the most of my life. One of those things is playing a computer game for 3 hours a day. I get plugged into World of Warcraft every morning and allow myself to be sucked in almost until I go to work. I need to use it as a reward rather then a main staple of my life. In that regard I will be blogging (I HOPE) every morning including adding my goals for the day month and year. I have so much I want to accomplish in the next 3-6 months. Having said this here are my current goals for today: Personal 1. Blog and Set Goals 2. Be off the computer by 9am 3. Get out of the house and get some serious exercise in. Business 1. Talk to people and get at least 5 names and nu...

I was reading my daughter-in-laws blog today and just had to put down my own experiences. I try to read her blog about every 3 or 4 days. It helps me be closer to my grand children. I actually find most of her posts funny or just plain real. Even learn a few things that I did not get from my son, like Parker having some breathing issues. Well today I read her post from about three or four days ago about Holden and a guy in his room. Boy can I relate to that. I think Thomas has heard these stories before. These are my real experiences. The earliest memory I have of seeing something others could not was when I was about 4 or 5. Probably closer to 5 since I was in school at the time. I went to stay with a friend over night, it was my first overnight ever. She lived in a very large old house near our swimming pool. It had a Hedge maze in the back yard. We had fun hiding from each other in that maze. That night I slept on pillows and blankets on the floor between her bed and a wall. There w...

Well, it seems this year went by way too fast and is ending on a sour note for me. I believe that means that things can only get better. So what can I do to change these things that are wrong in my life? My weight, my income, my location? DO SOMETHING . Yes, that's what I said, I need to do something with my life. I believe I have found it to. I am stepping out of my comfort zone and into a more active role in my own life. It is way to easy to sit around and complain about how we do not have this or that. How we have too much weight or not enough time, as we sit on the couch watching hours of TV or play our computer games. I am not saying everyone does this, however me and my husband do. I started this morning with a schedule that I am building to get me off the couch, out of the computer chair, and out of the house and into the life I want. I started by getting up at 6:30 this morning when I got out of bed. I grabbed the dog and took her for a walk. Then I fed the animals. Spent ...

Oh my this day is going to stretch on forever and ever. I arrived at work hoping for a cool day and my machine is not working. Guess it wanted a day off today. Almost 2 hours and service is only 15 min away now. So now nothing to do but see if patients show and wait for the machine to be fixed. Meanwhile I forgot my patterns for the crocheting I am doing. I also finished the book I was reading last night. What to do.

Okay, so originally I started this blog as I was trying to lose weight. I figured if I spent time typing it out I would stick to it. So nope did not follow through that way. But then I have since gotten a total hip replacement. As well as a bunch of other life crazy stuff. Now, I am just going top blog what is on my mind. I have absolutely always loved this time of year. When my kids were small we had no money and it was a major challenge just to get them the ONE perfect gift that they wanted. It became a key thing for me to make sure that there where presents under the tree no matter who they came from, but that the one special gift was from me. I will never forget the year I tricked Richie. He wanted a CD player, just a small personal one. That was back when they first came out and even a small one was like $40 or $50 bucks, high end of our gift budget. A friend of ours had gotten a CD player stereo and I asked for the box. I then placed the sheet and quilt set that Richie had wanted...

Question: Is an addiction a personal choice or a chemical/ physiological uncontrollable impulse? For me this is a seriously difficult question. I know some people out there believe that addictions can be easily overcome by nothing more then willpower. Yet everyday in the ER I work in I see meth users and alcoholics. They stand on street corners getting handouts "for food" and spend that money getting drunk or high. Never eating , or caring for themselves. I know some alcoholics that binge drink on the weekends. Never drinking at all when they have to be ready for work. It is ruining there lives and yet they still choose to do it. Is it by choice? Or is it a compulsion that overrides their thought processes to where there is no choice any longer? Why are some people able to overcome this compulsion and others can not? To me an addiction is something you can not controlled by ordinary means. In other words, a person can not simply say I will not smoke anymore, and walk away....

Not sure if I can keep to an everyday blog but will try. Question: What do you consider being materialistic? Having never had much money in my entire life I can not help but feel I am not materialistic in anyway shape or form. I do not want the trophy car. As my husband will tell you it is difficult for me to look at getting a second vehicle. Why do we need it when the one we got is hardly used? Yes, I like my sparkly things. All my jewelry is the real thing now. It is not for the bling factor but because I finally had the money to get something I saw and I liked. Do I go out of my way to get something everyone else has or wants? NO. I enjoy giving gifts to family and friends when I know there is something that would be useful or helpful. I try to keep random gifts under $50. Especially if it happens to benefit my grandson in anyway. I guess if you look around my apartment and see the 50" plasma with 2 computers below it, the laptop and third base computers in the next room, as we...