Why does life move so quickly?

Wow I truly can not believe it has taken me a week to get back to this. Then again when I look back at this past week I can.
The first stumbling block was not having a laptop or computer at my beck and call. You see while I am here in Ohio I literally have to go down to the lobby to use a computer I can blog at. Then there are all the distractions of many people coming and going. Some see you at the computer and ask what you are doing. Hello, what if I am typing something business related that is highly sensitive? Oh well my bad I am in a public spot. But acn I have my space anyway?
So what has happened since I last blogged? Not a heck of a lot. I guess. My farm in Missouri is now officially being sold. We will be closing on or around Feb 25. This has me tearing up as I really wanted that place. I could so see myself breaking ground and growing my own food. Having some real live chickens. Laying naked (ok topless) out by the pond. Having a horse or two out there. I hope this really does mean something better is coming.
The training for the new job is going well, to an extent. Two of the accounts out here cancelled yesterday and today so I am out here with nothing to do and no computer to do it with. *sigh* I do miss my game. I will fly back out here next week then to MA the week after. Look out Uncle Jerry I am coming to visit.
I did spend most of yesterday working on my book. Yes I am actually writing my life story. I have had several titles for it but have finally decided that the title of this blog makes the best title for my book. Since it really is my perception of how my life has gone. I do believe we all see these days we live in different from how those we spend time with see it. From how my mother perceived me growing up, to my friends, to my husbands and children. I have not decided yet whether I will keep everyone's names the same or change a few to protect myself from being harassed.
I guess that is all for tonight I am not brimming with details of anything I feel the need to write. Guess the book is taking a lot of my creative stuff.

Moving forward

Monday was amazing.
After I finished my blog, as advertized I went and swam in the pool. How awesome that it was snowing these big huge fat flakes right outside the huge windows of the pool house. I spent about 30 to 45 min working out in the water. Did some crunches. Gazed at the falling snow from the warm water of the pool. Afterwards I went up to my room and soaked in a tub full of hot bubbly (shampoo as I had no bubble bath) water. And read until I fell asleep. Just marvelous!
I did not get much sleep as I kept worrying about the fact that I had not heard from the girl I was training with. I finally got up at 5 and started getting ready for the day. At 6 I finally got the call from Kellie. Yes I could not remember her name and had actually just picked up the phone to call Kris my supervisor when my phone rang. Now Kellie will be picking me up at 6:45. Good thing I was up and dressed. I put some make up on and went down for my free breakfast.
I had already decided knowing what the breakfasts were like that I would eat big in the morning. Then grab some yogurt and fruit for lunch and eat a small dinner. It ended up that that was exactly what I did.
 Kellie is just one of the nicest most energetic women. She not only is a Stereotactic Specialist but owns a 50% partnership in a Fitness studio. Teaches 5 classes a week and has 2 children, 17 and 11years old. Just listening to her made me tired. However watching her work and understanding so much of what she was telling me made the day go by fast. There were only 3 cases however by the end of the day I was pretty sure I would have no problems doing this in 3 weeks or less.
Oh and it snowed almost all day. The ride out to the hospital it snowed and the drive back as well. I loved it.
Then we found out that Wednesdays schedule was cancelled. So I got a free day off. Well that just made me very lazy. I went to Walmart grabbed a foot long sub, chips, a soda and a candy bar. I planned this well for it was to be dinner tonight and lunch Wednesday.

Today I am pretty proud of myself. I was up out of bed by 7am and had a good sized breakfast. Including fresh fruit and a bran muffin. Okay,  I had those as a snack later. I had eggs, a Belgian waffle and coffee for breakfast. And I still have yogurt for my desert tonight. I had part of my Hoagie from last night for lunch and still have some left for dinner.
I have not exercised yet today. Nor did I last night. However I have completed filling out applications for licenses to 10 states across the country. What a pain. I need to get 6 more photos to attach to said applications as well as make 10 copies of my ARRT card, and fax off State verification of licensure from 5 different states to 5 different states. Also get 5 notarized before sending them all up to Gwen so she can cut checks and send them off for my licenses. When all is said and done I will hold 12 state licenses. Now I wish there was a national license for people like me. Not to mention I still need to find a part time position in the Virginia, Maryland area to keep my mammogram numbers up.

Other then that it has been a very laid back day and a chance to get myself organized at least when it comes to work.

I guess I should go eat my dinner. Then maybe I will get the energy up to go swim in the pool for a while. No snow falling tonight but not much else I want to do either. I guess the only thing I really wish I had here was someone to enjoy it all with. Ah well somethings in my life are meant for me to experience solo I guess.

So far for me 2012 is starting out well. Love to all my family and friends!

Happy New Year!

As promised I am starting my new life.
I am tonight in an awesome Hampton Inn in Youngstown Ohio. As I did on Jan. 2, 2000 this Jan 2, 2012 I am on the road with a new job. The last time I landed in St. Paul Minnesota. I was working as a traveling x-ray/mammography tech. Now I am a Floating Stereotactic Specialist.
There are still many things in my old life that I face everyday. From my messed up colon to my husband calling at odd times. I still have questions that need answering about who I am and where my life is going. But I am looking forward to finding who this complicated person is and what will make her happy not just drive her insane.
Believe it or not I had someone the other day say I was just too nice for them to hang out with. Lord all I wanted was someone to laugh and joke with. I guess baking a pineapple upside down cake after they had said it was thier favorite was way too much. Whatever. Hell it is one of my favorite cakes. So I got to eat some too!
I do not want people trying to "set me up" with their friends, after all I am still married. I want friends to hang out with and people to have fun with. Anyone wanna play pool when I get back to NOVA. Or when I get the apartment ready I want tons of peeps coming to my party. (Probably Saturday Feb 18th). Wow do I miss a social life :-)
I did spend some time with my darling daughter Joy today. She made me some awesome crepes.
The flight here was uneventful as was getting my rental car.
I guess that is it for now. I can not put down here just how excited and stoked I am. I am going to go get my swim suit on and go relax in the pool. Sweet dreams everyone. Have a fabulous year!

Restarting my life

I have decided it is time for my life to be my own. I am going to take charge and change things.
In the past I have made some effort in that direction today I am going to go the whole 9 yards. No ifs ands or buts. No excuses. I am the only one who can change me. The beginning of that is this blog. I will be opening my heart and soul here. I may say things that make people uncomfortable and even angry. I have been told the Internet is no place to put your feelings. I learned from reading both my daughter in law's and my step daughter's blogs that sometimes it is the best place to vent those feelings. This is a new age and time. I do not want to bury myself anymore.

Where to start? There are so many things running in my brain. I think I will start with the journey I just finished to get to the physical place I am at now. The emotional one is still a long way away. Although I am beginning to see and realize where I am supposed to be.

On November 4th, my 49th birthday, I left Campbell, CA. in a 16' moving truck, towing my car to head cross country to the Metro Washington DC area. In the truck with me was my husband Richard. In the car were my two birds, Tweety and Cheeky, two cats, Esmerelda and Ezekial, and my dog Athena. We started the drive at 10:30am, 5 and 1/2 hours after our scheduled departure time. Packing and loading took way longer then anticipated. I ended up discarding a number of things I had not initially planned on discarding. But none of it was anything I could not live without.
The traffic was light and there were no issues there. We had been told that the gas gauge had been acting up on the truck before we left, but that it was nothing to worry about. The weather was sunny and clear all the way through Donner Pass. We got the first 285 miles down without a hitch. When we stopped to gas up and grab some food it had snowed before we got to this spot. Snow on the ground but not on the roads. I got Esmerelda and Rich grabbed Athena out for a walk. Essie loved the snow. Athena just did her thing. One of the truckers took a picture of my cat on a leash in the snow.
After about 20 min we got back in the truck and headed down the road. It was about 20 miles outside of Reno when we realized that the gas gauge was seriously messed up. It was ready almost empty and the low fuel light was on. We talked about it and decided to try just to gauge the miles using the odometer. Fill up every 200 to 250 miles. No worries. So I got my pen and notebook out to write down the mileage. I asked Rich for the numbers and he was like, "Uh, I can't." What do you mean you can't? "There are no numbers just the words 'low fuel'." Oh, oh, that is not good.
The girl where we picked up the truck said we should call her if we had any problems so I did. She told me that we needed to reset the reader and to stop somewhere for like 20 min so it would reset. Isn't that what we did after gassing up? Okay we will do it. We pulled of the road shut it all off. With her still on the phone we turned it on again. No change. So we hung up with her. It was 3:30pm only 5 hours into my cross country trip. Only 80 hours to go, right? After about 15 minutes we tried restarting the truck again, yeah, no change.
So I called roadside assistance. I got them on the phone and explained what the problem was. She asked if we were in a safe place. I said we were, that we were now about 12 miles west of Reno. She said that it did not sound like we had a problem that roadside could fix by the side of the road. I asked if that meant we needed to get a motel for the night. She said that would be the best choice. All I could think of was that I did not budget for a nights stay tonight.
When I asked her whether Budget would pay for the stay she said I would have to talk to customer service. I said fine let me talk to customer service about it. So she transferred me. After being on hold for about 15 min I finally got a customer service person and explained everything again to her. She asked for the truck number again. Apparently the roadside person never entered it into the system. Or at the least did not save it. So the customer service person was like, "I am sorry but until it is in the system I can't authorize anything. I will reconnect you with roadside." And I am on hold again.
At least this wait was less then 5 min. The girl I got this time was all apologies. She entered my information in the system. Asked me if we wanted to wait by the side of the road or go to the hotel? Oh My God, so I explained my situation to her about trying to get customer service to help and getting transferred back and forth. She said that she would stay on the phone with me while she got ahold of customer service and explain the situation to them. Back on hold again. I glance at the clock and realize its 4:50pm. I have been at the side of the road dealing with these people for almost 1 and 1/2 hours.
Several minutes pass and a new voice comes on the line. "I am sorry ma'am but there is nothing we can do for you tonight about the hotel. It is 2 minutes until we close the office." You have got to be kidding me. I am on the side of the road and you are worried about getting off work. So I asked her name , Lori, and what should I do. "Go to the hotel see if roadside can get someone to you. Call customer service in the morning and I am sure they will reimburse you for the stay." So I will get reimbursed tomorrow? "No ma'am. In 3 to 5 working days. I am transferring you back to roadside." And I am back on hold. *Sigh*
At this point I am in tears with frustration and exhaustion. I slept only about 45 min the night before, finishing the packing. Roadside comes back on the line and explains that there is no service available at this time and that I need to stay in a hotel for the night. Really? I had that figured out already. Happy Birthday to me! She wanted me to call roadside back and give them the hotel information once I checked in.
I was very thankful I had a motel 6 directory at my fingertips. I looked up Reno, Nevada and called one of the motels. The desk person that answered was Susan. She was awesome gave us directions on how to find her and everything. Within 45 min we had our room and the animals, except the birds in a room. On our way in I saw a Denny's so I knew where I wanted to eat dinner. Yea, free for my birthday!

To Be Continued.

Turning over a New Leaf

Well, It has been almost a year since my last blog. I will attempt at doing this again. There has been so much happening in my life and yet I am still at the same place I was before. So I need to change.

Change starts on the inside. I must rethink my normal daily habits and figure out which things I need to change in order to make the most of my life.

One of those things is playing a computer game for 3 hours a day. I get plugged into World of Warcraft every morning and allow myself to be sucked in almost until I go to work. I need to use it as a reward rather then a main staple of my life.
In that regard I will be blogging (I HOPE) every morning including adding my goals for the day month and year. I have so much I want to accomplish in the next 3-6 months.

Having said this here are my current goals for today:
Personal
1. Blog and Set Goals
2. Be off the computer by 9am
3. Get out of the house and get some serious exercise in.
Business
1. Talk to people and get at least 5 names and numbers
2. Make phone calls and set appointments
3. Make a plan of action for prospecting.

Goals for January:
Personal
1. Have finished reading at least 2 Self improvement books.
2. Have finished organizing my office.
3. Have blogged and written goals at least once a day everyday!
Business
1. Helped protect at least 10 families
2. Gotten at least 5 personal recruits into the business
3 Got my Securities paperwork in and studying for my exams

Goals for 2011:
Personal
1. Move to Virginia
2. Get my weight to 200 by Feb 1st and 160 by Sept 1st
3. Be financial stable and able to work business full time
Business
1. Gotten Securities License
2. Have a team of at least 50 active members
3. Bi-coastal offices and make RVP


Feel free to ask questions is you don't know what I am talking about I will attempt to answer any questions.
Sweet it is 8:56 am and I am getting off the computer :)

Paranormal

I was reading my daughter-in-laws blog today and just had to put down my own experiences. I try to read her blog about every 3 or 4 days. It helps me be closer to my grand children. I actually find most of her posts funny or just plain real. Even learn a few things that I did not get from my son, like Parker having some breathing issues.
Well today I read her post from about three or four days ago about Holden and a guy in his room. Boy can I relate to that.
I think Thomas has heard these stories before. These are my real experiences.

The earliest memory I have of seeing something others could not was when I was about 4 or 5. Probably closer to 5 since I was in school at the time. I went to stay with a friend over night, it was my first overnight ever. She lived in a very large old house near our swimming pool. It had a Hedge maze in the back yard. We had fun hiding from each other in that maze.
That night I slept on pillows and blankets on the floor between her bed and a wall. There was a picture hanging on an jutting part of the wall down at our feet. Something woke me up in the middle of the night and there was a boy there. He was wearing clothes like I had not seen before. When I started talking to him he was surprised. We talked until I fell asleep about family. How big was mine? How big his was. That type of thing. He never scared me and I never really thought it was strange.
I look back and wonder why did I not think it was strange. I believe because it was not my first time. I had probably been seeing them for most of my 5 years. He looked so normal just wearing weird clothes.
The next morning I mentioned it to the family and the thought I was crazy. He appeared in the door and told me that they could not see him. When I pointed him out to the family no one could see him. They called my mom and I never was allowed there again.
Many, Many times until I was about 16 I saw ghosts, spirits, whatever names you want to attached to the essences that do not move to whatever is next. I would talk to them and sometimes something I would say would make them nod their head and go away. Sometimes they came back to me time after time. Never mad or angry just wanting to talk.
When I was 16 I had an experience that caused me to "wall off" whatever was letting me see them. I can feel things if they are strong, now and then. But I can no longer talk to them, help them move on. I miss that crazy connection.

Looking Forward

Well, it seems this year went by way too fast and is ending on a sour note for me. I believe that means that things can only get better.

So what can I do to change these things that are wrong in my life? My weight, my income, my location? DO SOMETHING. Yes, that's what I said, I need to do something with my life. I believe I have found it to. I am stepping out of my comfort zone and into a more active role in my own life. It is way to easy to sit around and complain about how we do not have this or that. How we have too much weight or not enough time, as we sit on the couch watching hours of TV or play our computer games. I am not saying everyone does this, however me and my husband do.

I started this morning with a schedule that I am building to get me off the couch, out of the computer chair, and out of the house and into the life I want. I started by getting up at 6:30 this morning when I got out of bed. I grabbed the dog and took her for a walk. Then I fed the animals. Spent about 1 and 1/2 hours playing my game. Then I got up and did 4 of the chores that needed to be done around the house. I took the dog for another long walk. Then left the house and went to the mall in search of prospects for the business I want to get going.

I ended up at work an hour before I needed to be there. But I got out of the house. I brought with me some things I needed to read and do for my business. So tomorrow I will continue on. I am planning on making 2010 a huge financial and personal success year. It starts TODAY!

I am also reading Deepak Chopra's new book and a Joel Olstein book to get me motivated and moving.

“Whatever relationships you have attracted in your life at this moment, are precisely the ones you need in your life at this moment. There is a hidden meaning behind all events, and this hidden meaning is serving your own evolution.” Deepak Chopra.